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Happy Birthday to MEEEEEEEEEE......

I had a wonderful birthday. It wasnt the presents or the cards ... it was the time I got to spend with my husband and my family. Last night my daughter took our son to her house, and we had the night to ourselves. We went to Tee Bonez for a nice dinner on the outdoor deck overlooking the lake. We came home and had some quality time togither. We may have had our problems in the past but NEVER in our ten years together have we ever had problems with our sex life. We are so compatible in that aspect of our relationship, and it seems to get better all the time !

Today, my daughters and my grandson came over, and we went to a lakeside tavern and sat on the upper deck they just added on. Unfortunatley the heat and humidity drove us inside after about a hour. But it was nice to celebrate with family. My parents don't live close enough, so we will be going to see them in a couple weeks.

Our Florida trip in only a few weeks away, and I get to see my brother while we are there.. and meet the new woman in his life.. I am looking forward to that ! I have not seen him in a few years now.

My day wasnt filled with expensive gifts or big parties.. and that is the way I wanted it. Its not about that anyway.. but sharing your special day with the people you love and care about... it was a perfect birthday.....

posted by Cynnie01 @ 9:50 PM 0 comments

Lazy, Hazy days of summer.....

Our neighbor's birthday was yesterday.... he turned 29. DAMN, I feel OLD !!! I am 20 years older almost to the day ( MY 49th birthday is next week ). I have a daughter his age... but they are GREAT people and we don't notice the age difference... UNTIL we start drinking. I remember the days when a all night binge resulted in a mimimal hangover. Now, we are lucky to get rid of them in 2 or 3 days....and they DO like to drink!! His wife is pregnant so her drinking days are on hold for now, something she isnt too happy about ( I don't think she is real happy to be pregnant.. it has cut into her social life ). Her husband started drinking at noon, and had a few friends over, including us. The party started dying down about 6 ( what did he expect anyway ), and that pissed him off. HE was ready to party.. the rest of us either burned out early ( age has a way of doing that ) or, had other things to do. Anyway... his wife got out some videos of her sons birth, and I guess that was the proverbial straw that broke the camels back. He went off the deep end and they had a fight.. a HUGE fight... needless to say, we left. We got home and died.. suffering from the over indulgences of alcohol. Neither one of us was in the mood for anything besides SLEEP ! I don't know how our neighbors fared after we left, I haven't talked to her today. I am SO glad my husband and I don't fight like that.. we used to though... Oh my God... did we ever fight. Now, I think we are just too old...LOL !!!!!

Today was a cleaning-type day... we even gave the dog a bath.. something she was NOT too happy about ! It feels good to get things done though. However... my main philosophy during the summer ( I am SO good at making excuses ) is that summer doesn't last that long , and I would rather spend my time enjoying it than stuck inside our house cleaning. Actually I just HATE cleaning period.. if I could afford a maid, I would hire one.. until that happens though, I am stuck doing it myself ( sigh )...

Next week is my birthday.. I didn't plan ANYTHING.. I don't feel like it should be my JOB to do that... for as long as I can remember, until last year ( my youngest daughter planned that one ) I have done it for myself. Arranged dinners out or nights in our favorite bar, etc. So I guess if nothing happens.. oh well... I am not doing it.. LOL ! After next year I am done with birthdays anyway... I think its time. Do you think if I dont have any more I won't age but stay the way I am ? For some reason turning 50 next year really bothers me. 30 didn't and neither did 40 ( I was pregnant at 40 ), but this one is getting to me. Maybe its because I know my life is more than half over... maybe its because I haven't done anything with my life except have children and get married . I have worked off and on.. mostly off... and nothing that would be considered a "career". I DID raise two wonderful daughters, they didnt get into trouble with drugs , they didnt get pregnant.. so I guess I should count my blessings. My son is 8 now, and hes a great kid. BUT... is this what God had in mind for me ? What am I missing out on ? For some reason I get the feeling there should be more in my life than there is... but WHAT ? I love my husband and my family.. more than I could ever possibly tell , or show, them. Some days I long for a CAREER though. Maybe I should just be content with what I have and how lucky I really am. I do feel blessed to have met a wonderful man, to have the children I have, and a grandson who is now healthy. All in all... I like my life, and I am happy with it... . I would never, ever change it... I have never regretted anything I have done... maybe that should be enough !!!

posted by Cynnie01 @ 4:57 PM 0 comments

This is me... the old lady with the reading glasses..... 

posted by Cynnie01 @ 3:42 PM 0 comments

What is sanity... and where did mine go...

The kid returned from his vacation... and brought a nasty attitude back with him. We are thinking it has to be from spending too much time with his friend. We have been hearing "Hunterisims" coming out of our sons mouth since his return, and I don't like ANY of them ! Okay... I want my son back now.....

Things on the homefront have been incredible. The one area my husband and I have never had problem with is our sex life... when we are on the same page, it doesn't get any better... and when we aren't.. well... it doesn't get any worse... LOL ! The man is a incredible turn-on for me, and always has been. SOme time ago... I "discovered" my husband was into some alternative lifestyle situations. After the shock wore off, and we talked about it... my decision was to at least try some of it, after all... I like to keep an open mind, especially about sex. I think my husband has created a monster now....because... I LIKE IT !!!! ALOT !!!!!!!! DAMN !!!!!!!!!! How the hell can some women ( and men too ) NOT like sex ? And sometimes.. it isnt the act itself that I crave.. its the closeness one feels with their partner DURING the act that is such a turn on. I feel as if we are one body as a result of that closeness... it doesn't get much better than that !!!

The next time I get a crazy idea... like BABYSITTING to help out a friend... would someone please slap me ? I thought.. how hard could it be.. watching a ten year old ? Well... let me tell you... my son and his friend fight CONSTANTLY.. and I thought girls were bad... they don't even compare....I will NEVER do this again... not for ANY amount of money.. well.. maybe for nothing less than a million... LOL. Its too stressful trying to deal with the constant bickering and fighting back and forth... and it is about everything !!! Today, for example, they were fighting over who's dog had the worst skin condition... I kid you not... !!!!!!!!! Now, someone please tell me why that is important to a ten and eight year old ?


Okay.... its time to make sure I get some things donea round the house before my husband gets home, so tonight, we can go to bed EARLY if you get my drift....I know.. I am insatiable......

posted by Cynnie01 @ 3:09 PM 0 comments

Heavenly.....

My husband and I have really re-connected this past week while our son has been gone. We both miss him, but, this time alone has been good for us ! We have gone out to dinner, saw the movie "War of the Worlds" ( I recommend it highly! What a GREAT movie ! ) , we have gone to the lake several times, including today. And, oh yeah... we have actually had nice, long conversations... imagine that !Not to mention the freedom to be intimate ANYWHERE in the house that we want ! Don't get me wrong... we love our son dearly and would never wish we could change having him.. he is a blessing and a true joy... but having the alone time has been just what our relationship needed. Sometimes I think we put ourselves and our marriage on the back burner. So much seems to come first... we neglect what should be a priority... US !!!!!!! I compare it to nuturing a flower.... if you dont give it water and nutrients, it dies... much the same way a relationship does when its neglected for too long. I almost feel like we have had a second honeymoon phase... it amazes me that, even after ten years I am still as attracted to my husband as I am.

I AM looking forward to seeing our son though, and hearing all about his week. What a week its been... jet skis, pontoon and speed boat rides... I bet now hes going to be wanting all of the above !!! Next month is our trip to Disney World and Clearwater Beach... he will have a full summer. Plus.. his football season starts on August 1st. YES... we are football parents... LOL !

So.. we JUST got back from 6 hours at the lake... YES I know....the SUN is BAAAAAAAAAAD for you... but I will NOT go to Florida without a decent tan... been there done that... so... we go to the lake and bake ourselves to a nice golden brown. It was crowded today with temps being in the 90's... but also very relaxing. Now its time to do my famous Caesar salad and flank steak on the grill... along with a pitcher of margaritas.. what more could anyone ask for ????? Oh yeah... well.. THAT comes later... after dinner... heheheheh......

posted by Cynnie01 @ 4:16 PM 0 comments