I FINALLY remembered !!!!
Wow....it has been a LONG time !!I forgot my sign in info, until I found it just today while cleaning out my desk.
whew.
So... what has been happening since... um... April ?
A lot....
My husband went to India and was let go 3 months early. yes, we are back to that same situation. Not knowing what will happen from one day to the next.
Don't get me wrong. He HAS a job... in FLorida....
But... we have NO idea when it will start... and we can't wait.
Our savings that we started after paying everyone off first... is gone.
We can't pay Septembers lease payment on our house.
I'm not sure where THAT is going to come from ( nevermind the fact that we paid my Mom back, but she insists she will not "SUPPORT US AGAIN "
HUH ?
Didn't I JUST say we paid her back ?
I wish we had ALL of that money right now.. we would be okay... until the job comes through in Oct or Nov.... or.. whenever.
Really... we would.
But... she won't "support us again"
Go figure.
I wonder where all of that money went ?
Hmmmmmm....
Because of the stress of the last nearly 16 months... constant stress... it has taken a toll on my marriage . Don't get me wrong. We love each other as much as we ever have.
But constant stress, day in, and day out.. has a funny way of doing that.
But we are struggling to maintain what is left of "us".
We aren't doing a very good job.
I miss the way things used to be. I miss my husband. I miss the laughter, the quiet times, the closeness... I miss it all.
But we are so consumed with just trying to stay afloat, to keep a roof over our heads, and food in the house, that we don't have time to nuture all the things I miss.
Does he miss them too ?
I don't know.. we don't talk.
I would like to think he does...
I really can not believe we are right back where we were 6 months ago....
And things were just starting to look bright for us...
Life has a way of kicking us right square in the teeth every time we even THINK things are going to finally go our way...
Maybe that is our first mistake.. believing that they WILL.
posted by Cynnie01 @ 9:45 PM
5 Comments:
Oh, you finally came back!
Got your email today...I'll keep my fingers crossed for you :)
some people would love to trade problems with you.you don't have it near bad as ytou seem to think. gimme ma a fucking break.
ya know what... "ANONYMOUS" ( not so anonymous really, I know who you are ).. unless you can say you have walked in MY ( or anyone else's for that matter ) shoes, you have NO right to judge. But I guess that goes to show how small minded and petty you really are. YOU have no idea what my life is/was/has been like.. and it pisses me off when people like YOU assume they do. I would NEVER judge you, what you write, how you feel, etc. But there is apparently a huge difference between the two of us.. I feel very sorry for you. You should take a few lessons from Biddie .. no matter HOW bad her life is, she always has a kind word or thought for everyone...
Is YOUR life so miserable that you feel the need to attack everyone else ?
Lets see.. my husband is unemployed we have NO income coming in, we are worried about the state of our economy and wonder when or IF he will get back to work. Neither of us can find anything to even tide us over.
But why the hell am I explaining this to YOU ? You must be one of those that is always worse off than everyone else.. I NEVER said, nor will I EVER say that no one has it as bad as I do.. I have enough sense to KNOW I don't. And since this is MY blog to say whatever I choose.. I will continue to vent or put my feelings down here. So go ahead and bash away.. it just shows you as the idiot you really are.
Now.. have a GREAT evening !!!
And plerase try and get some help for your small mindedness.. it is not very becoming.
when your right your rightand hey, your righthnh
glad you're back in the blogging world..
the world needs more Cynnies :)
I hope for the best baby
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