Welcome to the New Year
well... what a great way to bring in the new year....our car was reposessed today, sometime this morning i guess. the other one will be next...
if we want our car back we have to pay it off....
Happy F*%^%&% New Year
posted by Cynnie01 @ 4:28 PM
5 Comments:
I am sorry for your troubles. What upsets me more than the loss of your car is your extreem anger. You say your husband reads this blog. He must be feeling pretty awful about this. Try building each other up. Be strong together. I know it sucks. I am typing this in a house with no heat and I ran out of firewood. My husband is out of town trying to make some more money. I spent part of this evening with the kids wagon picking up sticks and a few old logs from out back. It's going to be very cold tonight and I am already frozen. Not much food left and I have 11.00 to my name. What I am saying is that I know you are feeling alone and maybe afraid and pissed off. Been there myself. It's easy to praise God in the good times but try it when things are at a real low. He never makes bad things happen to us. He does have a plan for you and he even loves you.I do not know why he allows things like this to happen to us. But I do know that you and I are among the Blessed. I know you know it too. No matter how bad it is, we are still in better shape then thousands of others tonite. When things are really bad the one thing that always helps me is to do something for someone else.It takes your mind off your own trials. Biddie is having a pretty bad time right now.In more ways than I will mention here,. But it would be a kind thing if you said a prayer for her daughter Jessica. When I am having a bad day I read her blog. She is facing many more serious problems than myself, I feel ashamed for complaining when I see this gal keep picking herself up no matter how hard the fall. She is so positive.I am not so good at that but I love to be around uplifting people. They rub off on you if you snuggle up and talk to them or read what they have to say. There are people out there praying for you and your family.I know cuz I am one of them. You are going to get through this. Even if it gets worse before it gets better, you are going to be okay.
you're right, i AM angry... and if you knew half of what our life has been like the last 12 years, maybe you would understand why. i have every right to BE angry, they are my own feelings after all.
and just so you know...Biddie and her daughter are in my prayers EVERY SINGLE NIGHT.. every one of them.. along with Markies parents, the other friends i have who have their own issues... the husband of a friend, who just passed away a month ago.. and the list is endless. i KNOW i am not alone in what i/we are going through. and sometimes that helps knowing that, sometimes it doesn't.
yes, my husband reads this blog... and he undertstands my need to vent, be angry, or sad or even depressed. it's a place for ME to get it out.. so i don't drag it into our relationship and our life. i am supportive and loving, and he knows that. YES... he feels awful, YES.. we talk about it,... a lot. he also knows i would move heaven and earth to help him...and i have. i spend countless hours searching for work.. for both of us. but you can't force someone to give you a job. i try to keep things light hearted at home, i try to be positive for everyone around me... and then.. when i can't do it anymore.. i post here. and you might think we are doing okay, and that i am whining about losing our car.. and maybe that is partially true...but that is a small part of the whole picture. you have 11.00 more than we do at the moment. and our electric and gas are close to shut off.. as they have been over and over the last 9 months. and i am sure one way or another, something will come up and we will be able to get those taken care of.. like we have in the past.
i know what biddie is going through... i just caught up on her blog today as i havent been able to log on to blogger, we lost our internet service and only had dial up which is slower than molasses in january. but some very lovely people helped us out with that bill and i am now able to log on to blogger and the work sites to continue looking for work . in fact.. i was about to send biddie a email explaining why i have been so absent .. right after i had gone through my own emails.. when i came upon your comment. so i decided to answer you before i sent hers.
do not for one second think i have not thought about her, or any of my other dear friends who are also going through their own issues.
i am not a selfish self centered person, but if you knew me, you would already know that.
as far as my husband and i go..we DO, and HAVE, and will CONTINUE to support each other, love each other, and work together to find a solution. again, if you knew me at all, you would know that as well. please forgive me if i sound bitter..i don't mean to be... and maybe you didn't mean to come across as condescending, but you did. for now, i will give you the benefit of the doubt, since i do not know you either. i thank you for your prayers...
Well I have to say that I gave alot of thought to commenting to you and was fearful you would not like it. I don't want to bother you or make you feel like you don't have your blog to vent. It's yours and I will leave you alone.
Thought about you all night. I have to tell you I am sorry. I didn't want to make you upset. I should have kept my big mouth shut. Wishing you the best.
it isn't that i was mad at you, but rather that you would presume to know me, or my situation and assume something that you had no clue about. i would have, and have never, done that. i guess it kind of stung a bit. i have been struggling for so long to just stay positive, be supportive, to my family and my friends... and i guess losing my car was the straw that broke the proverbial camels back.as i said, it's not just the car issue.. that was just the culmination of many, many things that have occurred over the last several months. a person can only take just so much. i guess your comments came at a bad time. maybe i would have handled it differently if my head had been in a better place. sometimes people can get off on the wrong foot, and things can be said in ways that aren't necessarily meant.i have already forgotten about it, and not to sound like a bitch or anything ( its NOT my intent ) but i have so many other , more important things to be worrying about right now... i have already moved on. but thanks for your follow up comment :)
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